Monday, August 2, 2010

Zephaniah Lee

I know this picture would make my momma so proud

Un-be-liev-a-ble!!!! It's hard to believe it's been 4 years. Time flies when you're having kids, lol.
I like to reflect on the birth of my kids near their birthdays, which I'm sure every mother does.

I remember being MISERABLE!!! Pregnant in high summer in Arizona, guess it could have been worse, Texas is VERY uncomfortable, even when you're NOT PREGNANT!!!
I was working at Pizza Hut Italian Bistro, serving tables, and knocking people out with my giant belly... but they were so good to me there, if I said I was hungry, they'd make any kind of pizza/pasta/bread/soup I wanted, I was SPOILED. God is so good too, you'd think, "ooooh, pregnant at Pizza Hut? she must've gained a hundred pounds".... the good news is I lost 60, lol. I asked the Doctors if that was a concern, she said "hunny, you had the weight to loose" lol.
So, I believe my "due date" was August 15, but Zeph and I knew better, we knew that was much too far away. So, August 4th, after my OB appointment, when they told me I was barely dialated, and it would be 2 weeks till delivery... I went home knowing, "those people have NO IDEA what they are talking about, I am having this baby TODAY". Hours later, Brandon and I were packing our bags to go to the hospital, we knew I'd be taken to Tucson, to have a V-BAC (natural delivery after already having a cesarean). We went into labor and delivery at the Sierra Vista "hospital", and was then flown to Tucson. My dad and Jane came up and stayed late through the night, sleeping on the uncomfortable hospital chairs...waiting for THE MOMENT.
I had been given an epidural after arriving at UMC in Tucson, and it was working WELL. I really couldn't even tell I was in labor. About 3am, the nurse came in to check me, and had the parentals leave the room. All of a sudden, she shoved my knees in my chest and told me to push... minutes later, Zephaniah was born. 3:07 am, August 5, 2006.
It was such a different experience from the C-section, so much more NATURAL (who would thunk it?) so much LESS painful. I actually remember seeing and holding Zephaniah right after he was born, not the case with Isaiah. He was so tiny. 7 pounds 11 ounces, 19 and 1/4 inches. His little wrinkled face, and his old man hair line, he was so precious.
Being a "round 2" mom, I just knew I knew everything about having a baby, and even though it had only been 4+ years, I felt as if I'd drop Zephaniah on his brand new head when I held him.... it all felt new to me again.
Dad and Jane, came in to the room, no one expected to see Zephaniah this soon, but we sure were happy to.

Zephaniah Lee, he has been vital in teaching me patience.... maybe I had prayed for patience before, not sure. Either way, our lives change every time another child is born to us. I know mine did. In a huge way.
I must thank my dad and Jane, for they helped me with Zephaniah so much. My dad and Zeph had a special bond, something I will never forget. ( I didn't live near family when Isaiah was born, the downside to military life)

I have never met a more tender-hearted child in all my days. Zephaniah's heart is bigger than he is. I could learn so much from him if I just sat back and took notes. He is SO quick to forgive, and I mean REALLY forgive. He doesn't just shrug his shoulders when you tell him your sorry, and say "it's okay". No, he opens his arms as wide as they will reach and embraces the one who has hurt him, and says"it's okay, I love you".
It chokes me up just writing about it. If we all could have the gift of forgiveness that Zeph posses, our world would be a much better place. Pure forgiveness... something I strive to, but fall short of, embracing.

Zephaniah I pray will be a leader, someone who wins souls for Christ. A man of God who wants nothing more than to preach to those last ears who haven't heard the great gospel. I pray Zephaniah will continue to have the forgiving heart he has, but that it won't be taken advantage of. I beg for God's protective hand to keep him from harm, and danger. I speak love, wisdom, and faithfulness over his life. I pray he will be wise and learn from my mistakes, not repeat them. I KNOW God has BIG plans for Zephaniah's life, and I know Zephaniah has a heart to serve God and will fulfill these plans.

Zephaniah 3:17

 17 For the Lord your God is living among you.
      He is a mighty savior.
   He will take delight in you with gladness.
      With his love, he will calm all your fears.
      He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.”

WHAT? God will rejoice OVER ME??? with JOYFUL SONG? WOW, that's love, and pure forgiveness. I can't even conceive this idea in my mind and fully understand it, but that's okay, because I know it is TRUE.

Thank you Father, for in my greed and selfishness, giving me a healthy beautiful Son who loves me unconditionally, and me him. I pray you will guide me to guide him. Father, forgive my shortcomings, and my mistakes as a mother. Give me strength, love and Grace I need to raise this boy into a man of God. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you <3 

Zephaniah Lee, you are surely a great Zephyr, use it to glorify God, and please him..... BE GREAT, SON.  I Love you unconditionally, Momma <3